Dinner last night

Yesterday I wrote that I was going to have dinner with my ex girlfriend.  Well I ended up having dinner with her and nothing bad happened.   I did feel a little sad but I'm over it.  I see no reason why I should be hung up on her anymore.  Last night while we sat there eating and talking I really saw nothing that would attract me to her anymore.  I've grown so much in the last year or so that she doesn't really interest me anymore.  But what she represents to me does attract me.  A submissive willing to serve me does interest me intensely.  I long for it, yearn for it.  But I know that I will have my submissive soon enough.  No sense really worrying about it anymore.  It will happen.