some sad news

It is with a heavy heart that I have decided to give up the Ds lifestyle. For me the lifestyle was fun and interesting, exciting, and fascinating, It taught me a lot about who I am and what I'm capable of. Being a Dom to a sub taught me how to be the kind of man I wanted to be, it gave me the confidence and the strength to find myself.

The Ds lifestyle has given me so much that is positive and yet it has also given me so much sadness as well. Not being able to find another sub has really taken me to a place of darkness and despair. To spend so much energy seeking and not finding has taken it's toll on me. I no longer feel that I will find another submissive. I'm not looking for a sub as a replacement for the one I lost mind you, merely just another sub to train, care for, and to be with. This is what I am not finding and I'm not sure I'll ever find it again. This is what saddens me the most. I am grateful for the friends I made on this journey, the lessons learned, and most of all I am grateful for finding myself again. I have no regrets and would not change anything I have done in the past 2 years.

I am also grateful for you who are reading this, for those who followed me on my journey, and for the memories. This I will cherish for the rest of my life.

~LR

Tsunami

I have been watching the footage and the devastation of the Earthquake and subsequent tsunami that struck Sendai, Japan on March 11, 2011. Thanks to so many people with cameras who are becoming citizen reporters for all the footage and news coming out of the area.

As many people know the tsunami didn't just affect Japan, It's affects were seen in Russia, Canada, the west coast of the U.S. and Hawaii to name a few. Here in Hawaii, We were lucky to only receive minor damage in comparison to what I'm seeing coming out of Japan. The affect of all of this leaves me feeling like there might be something I can do to help... I've decided to help through my art. Any sales of my artwork will be donated in full to organizations that are helping the relief efforts in Japan. Prints can be purchased through DeviantArt.com And I'm also opening up my paypal account to take donations for various organizations who are helping the people of Japan. I'm not sure which organizations I'll be donating to just yet but I will find the ones that are doing the most good for the area.

If you'd like your contribution to go to a specific organization leave me a message when you donate and I'll make sure that your contribution goes where you've asked.

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Thank you for your support,

~LR

Kink art photo shoot

I've finally gotten some time to sit and write a little about the shoot I had last weekend.

The basic idea as I wrote earlier was to capture something kinky and sexy and have fun in the process. What resulted was a series of images that I am very happy with. The location I selected was a fence that was located at the top of a mountain. I've shot there before but not quite like this. We talked for a quite a while about a lot of different things and I have to say that I've probably made a new friend as a result of the shoot. The model was someone I found through a posting I made on a fetish site. Once we made it to the location we talked about the shoot and then just jumped right in with a pair of wristcuffs. I put the cuffs on her wrists and then pulled over to the fence where I attached the cuffs to the fence with spring hooks. I would say that it was quite a turn on to do this even though there was no dominance occuring. Just simply the act of restraining her turned me on.

I began taking a few pictures, I changed her arm position and then took a few more pics. I kept the shoot laid back and mellow and making sure she felt safe and protected despite the vulnerable position I was putting her in. I did bring along a ball gag with me and she said she'd be ok with trying it. Once it was on her that's when things really started heating up. I liked the look of her helpless against the fence and unable to talk. I don't know why but it really got me going. after a few shots, I took the gag off and gave her a chance to relax and rest.

After a short break I reattached her to the fence with the cuffs but this time I also ties her legs to the fence so that the rope would force her legs into a position where they were spread wide open. I shot that, then added the ball gag to it and shot more. Once again I could feel myself getting turned on. Suffice to say that this shoot will be one that I remember fondly for a very long time.

In the end we got some really cool shots and she had a great time as well. I think she'll be posing for me again soon.

~LR

Poll Results... "Would You Rather Be...?"

I've decided I'm going to do a poll every once in a while asking my readers different questions related to D/s, BDSM, Fetish, things.  I'll leave each poll up for a month and after the poll is over, I'l post the results here in the blog.  SO here are the poll results for the question... "Would you rather be...?"

Spanked: 50% (8 votes)
All of the Above: 25% (4 Votes)
Flogged: 12% (2 Votes)
Whipped: 6% (1 Votes)
Caned: 6% (1 Votes)

I find it interesting that spanking got the most votes but then again it's a fairly mainstream thing. I know lots of people who aren't in the "lifestyle" of fetish or bdsm who enjoy being spanked. SO i guess it makes a lot of sense. And the one that makes me happy is the "All of the above" response at 25% of the votes. It's good to know there's people out there who enjoy it all!

Thanks to everyone for voting!

Photo Shoot Today

I'm working on a photo shoot today that should be lots of fun. I've decided to go from shooting art nudes to shooting more in the kink art genre. I'm rather bored with just plain old art nudes and I'm looking for something a bit more on the edgy, raw, and real. Don't get me wrong, I love that I can create and capture beautiful images of the nude human form in nature but I feel that I've grown as an artist and as a Dom and now feel like moving into a genre like D/s art or BDSM art.

The shoot I have planned is going to be tying a girl up to a fence in the woods. It's a place that I go to a lot actually. I've been seeing this fence and have had this idea for more than a year now. I've posted on this before but now I'm doing it. I'll be using leather wrist cuffs and spring hooks to attach her wrists to the fence. We'll play around with different positioning of the arms and the body  I also plan on using rope to tie her legs to the fence in a way that forces her legs to be spread wide open.  It might be a bit uncomfortable but I think I might be able to also get her ankles attached to the fence using the same method as the wrists! I'll have to see when we get there if it's going to be possible.

One of my plans is to leave her there for a little while.  That should give her some time to find a place of peace with the restraints or it might get her to start freaking out a little about what might happen.  I don't know which I like better.  I'll play with her a bit before I shoot though.  Making her truly feel safe and  that I am in control of her and what's going to happen

We'll see what comes of it.

~LR

Night Nude Photo Shoot...

The other night A friend of mine and I did a nude photo shoot on the beach.  I'm grateful that it didn't rain and that she was able to shoot with me while she was visiting.  I always love shooting with this girl and I can never shoot with her very often because she moved away at the beginning of the year.   She was back to visit and so we got a chance to shoot and have some fun.

Because of my crazy schedule, I decided to try shooting at night on the beach.  It wasn't easy and having to bring a flash with me made it a little more of a challenge.  I usually don't shoot with lights when I'm outdoors because the sun is usually enough for me to get good shots.  But being that it was pitch dark that night I needed the flash.  And I like what it did and what it looked like.  I think I'll shoot more with it and see what else I can do with it.

~LR

Dinner last night

Yesterday I wrote that I was going to have dinner with my ex girlfriend.  Well I ended up having dinner with her and nothing bad happened.   I did feel a little sad but I'm over it.  I see no reason why I should be hung up on her anymore.  Last night while we sat there eating and talking I really saw nothing that would attract me to her anymore.  I've grown so much in the last year or so that she doesn't really interest me anymore.  But what she represents to me does attract me.  A submissive willing to serve me does interest me intensely.  I long for it, yearn for it.  But I know that I will have my submissive soon enough.  No sense really worrying about it anymore.  It will happen.

Dinner with the ex

Tonight I'm supposed to have dinner with the ex that I have talked about on here the most.  I still have issues concerning her but I'm trying to retain a friendship with her because I know it's important to her.  But it still messes with my head.  We're supposed to have dinner in about 3 hours and the closer it gets to that time, the more I want to just cancel it.  Not sure if I should or not.  I want to take the high road and hope that it'll make me a better man but at the same time I don't want to get depressed again.  I've been very good about being depressed lately.  Haven't felt sad for about 3 weeks now.  But there's this fear that it will start me on another downward spiral.  Maybe I should cancel.  I don't know.  We'll see what happens.

Voicemail...

If you read this blog you might have seen the blog of text below that mentions a phone number where people can call and leave sexy/naughty messages. Well I realized after receiving a message today that I hadn't really written about the messages I've received!

So far I've received quite a few messages. the first was rather weird but I still enjoyed it. It was a woman telling how much she wanted to eat my pussy. Even though I don't have one of those I still found it extremely hot! Others I've received have been people having orgasms for the most part. WHich is pretty much what I was after. although people can do what they want, I generally love to hear women cum. just the sound of it turns me on. Knowing she's playing with herself, or picturing how she might laying. I can often imagine her finger placement, perhaps she has two fingers in herself. mmmmm

Well today I received a message that really got me going. It was simply a woman masturbating and cumming. but the orgasm was intense! It got me so hard that it surprised me. By the time the recording finished playing I was touching the throbbing bulge that now existed in my pants. My cock wanted out and wanted to be touched. Of course I resisted since I was sitting at my desk at work and I do share a cubicle with another employee.

So thank you to whoever you are for leaving that message. I hope that you enjoyed it immensely and might do it again some time soon! =)

Outdoor Kink Anyone?

In talking to a sub recently, she asked what my top five kinks were. I had to think pretty hard about this one. I mean she only asked me to name five! I named four and was thinking pretty good about the fifth. She went off on a tangent and we started talking about other things. Then it hit me! Outdoor kink! I remembered that I had always loved having sex outdoors.

When I was a teenager it was out of necessity. As I got older though it became rather childish to have sex in cars, on the beach, or in the woods. But as I thought about this more I realized why can't I have sex outdoors? I mean it's rather fun. The threat of being caught can be exciting. the thrill of maybe someone walking by and seeing... maybe they'll stay just out of sight and watch from a distance. Maybe they'll get closer and watch.

And then it occurred to me to take it to a whole new level. Why not get kinky outdoors too! I mean if you're going to have sex in the woods why not use the woods as your playspace! I started thinking of all kinds of things I could do. Tie her to a tree and spank her, whip her, flog her. Make her kneel or crawl in the grass or the mud. This was starting to get fun!

I recalled the picture to the right here. One that I shot when I was bored and wanted to try shooting something a bit more interesting. But I started thinking that I could cuff her to that fence in the picture since there's usually no one around for hours there. My mind started reeling with all kinds of ideas... many I won't share here because I haven't done them yet. But I started thinking of all the places I've shot nudes at and pondered if I could get away with more kinky things in those places as well.

Now when I go on hikes, I'm gonna see the woods in a whole new way!

~LR